Well, Thanksgiving has come and passed now, and the house has withstood the test. We had 20 people over for dinner and it was a really fun night. We had lots of good food and friends, including some new ones, friends that is. Anyways, a fun holiday, who can ask for more?

So now I am trying to focus on the mission at hand, to get some good art work done, to work on the website, finish my damn movie reviews, basically to get focused. A good sign is that I spent all day today just reading comics and doing a little bit of drawing, and the day isn't even over yet. Right now I am going to put some work in on the website, mostly the movie section, since that is quite do-able.

Anyhow, feeling good, staying focused.

-- AG

Yup. Thats how I feel right now, a mixed bag. I hate it when things get too complicated and you start to overwhelm yourself, then you realize it and just keep doing the same thing. wtf. I feel like I am trying to be and do a hundred things at once, and then my head starts to hurt when I am not even doing anything. ouch. Anyways ... I say keep it simple ... find one thing ... do it. Thats what I am shooting for right now.

So, I finally made it up to Davis this weekend, although only for a day. I am really glad too, I needed a weekend away from the house. All this work and pressure is just not for me. I really just hung out and played some Metroid Prime, but it was damn relaxing. Other than that things have been pretty standard. The house is almost done now and stuff is constantly being moved in. I am trying to get constant practice with my drawing as well as catching up on my comics. I am really set on creating a comic, so we'll see how it goes.

No more writing.

-- AG

Well ... I wasn't feeling too good on monday when I woke up, so I began fasting immediately. I am happy to say that it has been almost 72 hours now, and I am feeling much better. It also hasn't been too hard staying away from food, granted that I pretty much locked myself in my room. Anyways, I am happy to report that I am feeling well again and looking forward to starting up my normal routines again tomorrow.

I am also pretty excited right now since I finally got mythtv, my home brewed pvr, to work on my workstation. I'm not sure why it wouldn't work correctly on my athalon machine, but oh well, another excuse to get a new computer. Anyways ... mythtv works pretty damn well, so I am glad.

Finally, I am starting to gear up to do the artistic work we need done on "the game." And of course, I am finding out just how hard creative drawing can be, but I will not be discouraged, I will prevail. Well, now seems like a good time to do some drawing.

-- AG

So, the weekend has come and gone, and it was a good weekend if I do say so myself. Friday I went and saw Auto-Focus, which will have a review up some time soon. Then Saturday I went to spend the rest of the weekend with Panos at his house and work on the development of our game.

While our production was probably less than efficient, I think we accomplished a lot, and most importantly ... we got the process started. We've played with ideas and talked about concepts, and we are now pretty set on what the game is going to be about. Now the real design begins with creating all our characters, maps, items, menus, etc. Should be fun :)

On a side note ... we are also planning on doing some work with comics. I am probably even more excited about this because it is much more reasonable of a project, and I know we will get this going. Anyways, it was a great weekend playing video games (research of course ;) and relaxing while working on defining our game. We also had a good time watching the niner game, but they lost. suck.

All in all ... I am extremely excited at this moment. I can feel my fingers starting to grasp onto some of my dreams, and if feels really good. Good things are happening, and not by chance, but because I am making them happen. There really is nothing quite as gratifying as the realization of a dream, and so I am back to work to continue making mine a reality.

cheers.

-- AG

I am finally here to write my entry for today ... and now all my ideas are come and gone. lame.

It is interesting to think of the billions of ideas that course through our minds every day, but of course we forget about them or let them go. Too bad I can't integrate this journal into my brain so that I could record directly out of my brain whenever I wanted ... I guess I'll have to settle for typing it up for now.

Anyways ... not many details to submit for today. Worked on the house with dad 'til about 2:30, then headed over to Panos' house to chill. Gotta little bit of conversation going about the game, but the real work will begin this weekend.

I had a billion other ideas of things to say ... but now I can't remember 'em. shit.

-- AG

So ... finally got this thing working.

Ahhh ... the beginning of a journal ... now where to start. Lets start with the reasoning for this little tool. Its simple really ... a journal is a great idea, but keeping a written one is a pain in the ass, so instead we will do it on a computer. Now ... my life ...

Well, I now stuck in the pit of life, just trying to find out what to do with my life while constantly relishing the reality that I am not doing what I should/could be doing. Anyway ... mumbo jumbo. I'm working for dad on the house right now, which is actually becoming quite cool now that I am learning useful stuff and feeling like I am actually doing some work. I am also trying to get this website of mine started and functional to serve as inspiration to organize the efforts of my life. There there's the HTPC project, what a bitch that has become. And finally "The Game" which hopefully will become a serious project very soon. All-in-all, it could be worse, but it could be better too.

I feel like I am in a strange transitional period in my life where I need to find ways to assert my ability to function as an adult member of society. I also feel some pressure to try and radically change my life through some bold actions. I dunno ... but I feel like there is something i just must do ... and that thing will lead me to the next stage in my life. Wonder what it is I am supposed to do?

--AG